It's Not All About Me

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When it comes to writing about oneself, many thoughts come in to try and organize or categorize by importance the highlights of your story, For me seems impossible! It doesn't end with the organizing you still need to edit your version in your head a few dozen times and make sure your writing is true with no filtered illusions and the rough draft seems so perfect in the mind, then typing it out it's unknowingly been subconsciously over analyzed and more questions roll in that make you second guess what your saying. Now you have gotten your mind so amped with this "About Me" page on how unique it is and makes perfect sense, people are really going to love it, then to did I say to much, to little, What if I sound crazy? or Offend someone? All my past is now a leading role, I, I, I is all I hear so I stop and rethink what my goal is here, Is it about me , is it about you, or is it about unity and one belief helping another belief by just living there own unique path. I realized a lot of people have survived the very same as I have. Is my story worse or better than anyone passerby? No, and It really isn't all about me!

Sunday, January 21, 2024

Reality that Hits the Heart!

 A clear message today I received from the highest of the Spiritual Realm. As I do not hear voices or even see any shape, thing, or spirit. But I feel a pleasant pressure and warmth amongst my face and at great peace in my heart and mind. At ease and harmony perse.

I know this to be a sign for me to look within and listen to my surroundings and thoughts and notice
anything that would be out of my normal patterns and topics in thought.  So this evening after I had finally sat down my face began to get flushed and my worries I had just seconds ago  were suddenly not even in thought and so I knew I needed to open my mind  close my eyes and relax, with no intent no questions and just recognize the visuals that come in. A gold door and a man is opening it and he is in decisive to leave or go. He is in the full figure of a human but as a clouded silhouette in the distance. The door swings open to close but not as a swinging door but as one that he keeps opening and shutting it. When I figured out after a few times in repetition mode  that he was unsure to stay or go, that very second my heart went from harmony and peace to a fast drop of ulcers feeling sinking, soulless piercing with the beats of my heart. Every beat it would drop like that like an elevator when the cables have broken and you’re on floor 11.

This is when my ego steps in and strays me (but only for 30 seconds or so) to believe that the man I have fallen so in love with and searched for the past year, (my soulmate and heart’s desire) had drifted and this was telling me he had repeatedly tried  but it was time for him to go. This is an ego interview due to the negative impact of my actually really good day in a long time. Your ego is usually the worst-case scenario. But I quickly learned that and cleared my mind again, The heart emotions were I believe telling me that I needed to go to the place in my mind where I could see the realness of my heart's desire and to open my thoughts upon what exactly real love means to me at every beat and not an on and off an open shut door it’s a continuous beat and open door and never closed. The man is a blur I have not found him in my search but I noticed it was a white clouded and black silhouette so he is now visible that's what I took from that.  The words of thought entered in an instant, and out of not just a normal thought process but a thought that had never entered my mind since this journey had begun. It said:

“ Go to the place in your heart where you know real love and think on this for a few of your time then if it is him that comes he will come and if not then I would know my answer. “

So right at this moment I will raise my spiritual vibrations and clear any space that is what my mind wants it to be and allow my heart to tell me the truth. I am in fear of the possibilities of what I don’t want but I will accept them if it is the truth.

 I chose the heart chakra opening vibration at 343 Hz and laid down for 4 min. 32 seconds and I just said in thought visualizing myself at a golden door with it opened and the divine white light on the other side I stood at a distance and said please lead me to the realness of our love and the truth that the mind has forbidden me to see. At that very second my heart went to that piercing feeling but at consistent motion and not by beat. With it on its own, it is actually a great excitement feeling and not as negative as the first response.

Then there is a particular tone to the truck that makes my heart race. If it is him or not, I don’t know but for some reason, my heart just gets so thrilled to hear this tone.  And with those two responses together I’m still at a positive feeling and then all of a sudden my heart just goes as a dull bored normal beat feeling as if all the excitement seconds ago never happened.  So this leads me to believe that it is time to wait and see what happens. It’s time for my inner emotions and  subconsciousness to process my reality and my answer will be in front of me or  my chapter on this is ending and time for the next part of my spiritual self-loving journey. 

I end with these words from the heart:

Only you know the steps you walk and the amount it measures up to be,

Has it taken its toll on your life or is worth every penny to be able to stand and fight.

It is hard for us to accept just how hard life can hit us when we want in our mind

so much opposite of what is best.

 If you can face that fear of knowing both paths are possible,

 And be open that either way you will still do and have great things to come

Believe in what comes naturally.

Never question the emotions but reject the thoughts that follow,

 Then the real courage is to love everything about what’s so accepting in your heart

And let life flow. Embrace yourself and get up close and personal with your vibrations of vibrancy

And accuracy with the illusions only in the dreams that pass!

In the name of Jesus Christ, I say Thank God and Thank You,

Brooke Smith

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