Cowardly Truth

 Cowardly Truth!

By: Brooke Smith

 

When you think of honesty and integrity, or even similar words in reference to a “Cowardly Act”. What exactly enters your mind? Is it a person, a place, a thing, an action, or a statement?

Webster says it means a lack in courage. Yes, I believe that as a foundation and that cowardness can resonate amongst every choice we make, every path we take, and every person we involve in it. But for someone that I hear more often than not state “I have INTEGRITY, I’m an Honest Person, and see that person talking behind that female's back that’s a coward move”. Agree?

So here is my theory and comments on the statements above:

First to say it is a lack of courage well defines courage. To me, it takes courage to sit and listen more than to speak.   It takes courage to put yourself out there as a new you or say hi to a crush, everything in life is courage. So, my vision sees it as a positive gain in self-love and growth as society sees it as a flaw one might have a negative statement towards another. For example, when looking at your odds do you say I see the glass half empty or half full. Of course, mine is half full and I don’t say it I believe it. No matter the distance I must go it will never be half empty.  That doesn’t make me more efficient or ahead or above anyone else, it just applies’ s to me and my goals and how much I know I’m worth to my life I have been given time and time again.

It can only start with you apply to you and work with you, not society or parents or friends and passersby. It is your call to believe that you deserve extreme happiness and success (however your success measures) and desires in the end. Let people offer you a cowardly remark and see it as an offer v. a negative impact. Put yourself out there and if your crush says hi back then yay! If he doesn’t know that he or she loses because you know what you have to offer. Align with your life and your life will guide you on what is good for you, not Human nature. Remember human nature is ego and life is heart!!

         Desirable chances

To desire is to crave something so deep within your soul that you’re unable to just let it flow on by. It’s possible and within reach but you just can’t physically touch it. It’s something that you know is right and much more than a want but you’re always one step behind the full effect of having it.

It starts in your mind at the beginning of your day to is just being your everyday. It is like knowing the word to say but it’s right at the tip of your tongue and you know you know it, but you begin over time to disbelieve in ever recovering it.

Where do you believe this could end up on your journey to self-healing? Is this desire of yours a real chance you begin to think your self-doubt and self-worth begin to be overrun by the over-processed analyzed thug named “EGO”!

Then only many more negative thoughts and failed attempts at ever reaching that desired just blew your chances out the door and down 2 blocks instead of one step.

This is where it becomes critical in your self-healing to notice when your ego takes its first shot at you because if you can catch it, you will be ok. But one thing is for sure, even knowing the mind’s process and the way it is wired, it is still very hard to fall into its trap time and time again.  For me, I am at the current stage of ever desiring anything in my life. I have always just gone with things naturally and if it wasn’t meant to be then it wasn’t. I also have never been a materialistic person so I have never just wanted things as things were not of importance therefore you can’t desire them.

Today I have finally just processed that the ego has the upper hand right now and has for a few days to a point that it saddens me to think that all the abuse I went through and from Mom and Kenny all of them words of you’ll never be anything to anyone, your worthless, your nothing, you’re not ever going to be worth anyone’s time. All those negative heavily repeated statements in my PAST become alive in my head, even in meditation just keep attaching in my thoughts my choices throughout the day and my whole energy field. My headaches are worse, my eye that was popped out is going back blurry which hadn’t happened in years, my every 13 surgeries scars are just aching, and my heart is shutting back down into numb mode. Then if it isn’t changed and if my thinking doesn’t start believing I do have a chance at my desire my solitary confinement will get stricter. I do believe I could come out of remission with Chondrosarcoma all over a matter of time if I allowed my ego to take the steering wheel. We do make ourselves ill and we very much have the power to heal our illness. That is why our thoughts and our souls’ desires cannot be dismissed as just other passersby in our lives. You can reach for whatever it is that you want in life, just remember that sometimes the things you must fight harder to get you will cherish & appreciate more when you do get them!

So don’t sell yourself short and you will always have any chance you want when your soul desires!